Hey guys, we head over to the video game and streaming section.
So I am still streaming video games but I never told you guys that I had a brand new PC.
I love it very much and I am able to finally stream most of every game that is out there!
I also have a game capture card that captures next gen consoles. So I can stream all of my PS4 games as well and not have to use the built-in stream on the consoles. Its much better using the capture card.
I recently got games like, DOOM, Grim Dawn and others. I am just have a wonderful blast with streaming alot of games finally!
I still do horror nights sometimes but I noticed alot of people are really not that into them anymore. Its cool for a few weeks but then it dies to fast. So I have no clue what I wanna do with horror games anymore.
Well that is it for now I will post more things about games more often. Here is the link to my twitch channel and youtube.
www.twitch.tv/tealaian
www.youtube.com/tealaian
See you all later! :)
Thursday, May 19, 2016
The things I realize
Hey guys! How is everyone doing?
So my below post about dealing to much made me think on alot of other things about this.
I know what I talked about with my ex and it started to make sense. Alot of sense.
There are mistakes by my end that are easily changeable and thats what I wanted to do.
I have changed and my life started to kick in. But my ex is trying to keep a reason to stay away from me and staying with her other bf.
But the reasons that point on my end seems like "Love" isn't for her. I know I have problems thinking on stuff but that has changed. I know I don't have a car or a place yet which I am working on. My ex is a fast pace relationship type person. So its like a ticking time with me if I can't get it, I can't have her.
That is not love. That is a one sided relationship and it feels I am the only one that really actually loves her, but I also realized. Did she even really loved me?
Why would I be with someone that acts this way? She is with her new man just because he is doing the same thing I did but has other things she wants. This really is not a relationship, just a "take care of me, type".
Here's the thing. I have took care of her but I took care of her and meant it with my heart and soul and she ran off.
How I see it. Love would of been, sticking together, finding a place together, both having jobs, getting a car, having whatever else. Staying with one another for life. Of course if it "really" wasn't meant to be then thats a different story. But of course this story is based on that.
Love = REAL heart meaning love. Something I have. Thats what I was really trying to say.
I have been depressed and still am but just alittle bit now. I have come to realize these things from my ex that really its not ALL my fault. But seems like the one for me wasn't really the one for me and I guess god wanted me to see what she was.
I think I finally understand him and why he kept me away from her and still is keeping me away from her right now.
It feels like he is saying, "I deserve a better women", but I have no clue who that will be and we will find out at some point in my life.
So my below post about dealing to much made me think on alot of other things about this.
I know what I talked about with my ex and it started to make sense. Alot of sense.
There are mistakes by my end that are easily changeable and thats what I wanted to do.
I have changed and my life started to kick in. But my ex is trying to keep a reason to stay away from me and staying with her other bf.
But the reasons that point on my end seems like "Love" isn't for her. I know I have problems thinking on stuff but that has changed. I know I don't have a car or a place yet which I am working on. My ex is a fast pace relationship type person. So its like a ticking time with me if I can't get it, I can't have her.
That is not love. That is a one sided relationship and it feels I am the only one that really actually loves her, but I also realized. Did she even really loved me?
Why would I be with someone that acts this way? She is with her new man just because he is doing the same thing I did but has other things she wants. This really is not a relationship, just a "take care of me, type".
Here's the thing. I have took care of her but I took care of her and meant it with my heart and soul and she ran off.
How I see it. Love would of been, sticking together, finding a place together, both having jobs, getting a car, having whatever else. Staying with one another for life. Of course if it "really" wasn't meant to be then thats a different story. But of course this story is based on that.
Love = REAL heart meaning love. Something I have. Thats what I was really trying to say.
I have been depressed and still am but just alittle bit now. I have come to realize these things from my ex that really its not ALL my fault. But seems like the one for me wasn't really the one for me and I guess god wanted me to see what she was.
I think I finally understand him and why he kept me away from her and still is keeping me away from her right now.
It feels like he is saying, "I deserve a better women", but I have no clue who that will be and we will find out at some point in my life.
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